Don’t shame me, I just want to know my HIV status

As a sexually active adult who has had more than one sexual partner in the past two years, the guilt of not knowing my HIV status went with me everywhere. It hits harder each time I am about to have sex with my partner. I had not gotten a test in nearly 10 years and this in itself was shameful, especially so when I revealed this information to a close friend who made a huge deal out of what he described as “carelessness”.